是啊，好样的，今天在加工木头的时候又捡了不少碎片。等我度假回来再见吧？如果你觉得我不尊重你，我很抱歉。这不是我的本意。如果我在电话里的回答让你觉得有点冷，我很抱歉，这不是我的本意。今天我的身体很痛，感觉不是百分百好，我现在在家休息，希望吃过饭后会感觉好些，这就是我说会让你知道的原因，但也许我之前应该解释一下。你知道，我总是很高兴见到你 💋我只是想让你们知道发生了什么/向你道歉 对不起，我一直没有给你发短信，而且有点逃避，这个女孩意外地回到了伦敦，这让我非常困惑，我们见了面，我真的不知道发生了什么事，但我觉得和不止一个人聊天/见面有点奇怪，只是觉得我欠你一个解释。嘿，很抱歉一直没联系你:_) 我喜欢和你在一起的每一分每一秒，回想起来会很美好......我只是觉得我现在的状态不适合约会，我需要把注意力集中在自己身上，我经历了很多，比如专辑发行、乐队解散等等。

我真的需要理清头绪，我很抱歉，但我说你很棒，我们一起度过了美好时光，我是认真的，我会想念你的🥲，你超级有趣，很有创造力，和你在一起很放松。

我知道你可以做任何你想做的事 祝你幸福 🙏🏻对不起，佐伊！我现在工作太忙了，又要搬家，又要办签证，脑子里想的事情太多了，我不想给你添麻烦什么的，我现在只是处于人生的过渡期！.................如果我们现在只是朋友，可以吗？????? 我喜欢和你一起玩，但我现在有很多事情要做，很难全身心投入。

最近，你的话让我想了很多，你和我一起表达的这些想法也让我想了很多。

是的，我的身体和内心都病了（不只是我的思想，我还不知道哪里病了），我不知道该如何解决这些问题。

我反反复复地想该怎么写，我肯定没有正确的表达方式。自从上周末在一起后，我的内心一直感觉一团糟。好像有什么东西碎了，你知道吗？跟你说出来就能看出我有多认真

但问题是我现在的状况不太好上周末发生的事 还有我妈挖出的一些关于她的事 我意识到我需要退一步了我甚至可能去意大利陪她一段时间。

工作呢？它让我窒息，我需要尽快去法国，也要去一段时间。我必须坚持下去，但这又增加了我的压力。

这一切就像一吨重的砖头砸在我身上，现在我甚至感觉不舒服。我的脑子一团糟，如果可以的话，我必须尽快整理好自己。老实说，我觉得我得靠自己。

当我自己都快撑不下去的时候，我无法像我想的那样陪在你身边。我还没准备好，对不起。我很内疚 但这次我得把自己放在第一位

我希望你能理解我的想法，原谅我需要退一步。你对我很重要，我会一直想着你。希望我从这次事件中走出来，变得更加坚强，准备好成为你值得拥有的朋友。

这次我的决定必须是不可逆转的，因为我真的必须照顾好自己，就像你多次对我说的那样。

我想说的是，我不是在寻找恋爱关系，我只是在寻找伴侣和性--直截了当地说。如果这和你想要的一致，那很好，如果不一致，那我很抱歉。

对不起，佐伊刚我睡醒，我 15 分钟后再打给你。

Yeah, good job, picked up a few more splinters today while working on the wood. I'll see you when I get back from my holiday? I'm sorry if you felt I was disrespectful. It wasn't my intention. I'm sorry if my answers on the phone left you feeling a little cold, that wasn't my intention. I'm in a lot of pain today and I'm not feeling 100%, I'm resting at home right now and I'm hoping I'll feel better after I eat, that's why I said I'd let you know, but maybe I should have explained that before. You know, I'm always happy to see you 💋 I just wanted to let you guys know what's going on/apologise to you I'm sorry I haven't been texting you and kind of avoided it, this girl came back to London unexpectedly and it's been very confusing for me, and we met up, and I don't really know what's going on, but I feel kind of weird talking/meeting up with more than one person, just felt like I owed you an explanation. Hey, I'm sorry for not contacting you all this time :_) I loved every minute with you, it's going to be so nice to look back on it ...... I just don't feel like I'm not in the right state for dating right now, I need to focus on myself, I've been through a lot, like album releases, band breakups, and so on.

I really need to clear my head and I'm sorry but when I say you're great and we had a great time together I mean it and I'm going to miss you 🥲 You're super fun and creative and it's so relaxing to be with you.

I know you can do whatever you want 🥲 Good luck 🙏🏻 Sorry Zoe! I'm so busy with work right now, I'm moving and getting visas and so many things on my mind, I don't want to get you in trouble or anything, I'm just in a transitional period in my life right now!!! ................. Is it ok if we are just friends now? ????? I love hanging out with you, but I have so much going on right now that it's hard to give it my all.

Lately, your words have made me think a lot, and these thoughts you've expressed with me have made me think a lot.

Yes, I'm sick in my body and in my heart (not just my mind, I don't know where yet) and I don't know how to fix these issues.

I go back and forth on what to write and I'm sure I don't have the right way to express it. Ever since we got together last weekend, I've been feeling like a mess inside. Like something's broken, you know? Just telling you about it shows you how serious I am.But the thing is, I'm not in a very good place right now, and with what happened last weekend, and some of the things my mum dug up about her, I've realised I need to take a step back, and I might even go to Italy for a while to be with her.

What about work? It's suffocating me and I need to go to France as soon as possible and for a while too. I have to stick with it, but that adds to my stress.It's all hitting me like a tonne of bricks and now I don't even feel well. My brain is a mess and I need to sort myself out soon if I can. Honestly, I feel like I'm on my own.I can't be there for you like I want to be when I can barely hold it together on my own. I'm not ready, I'm sorry. I feel guilty, but I have to put myself first this time.I hope you'll understand and forgive me for needing to take a step back. You mean a lot to me and I'll always think of you. I hope I come out of this stronger and ready to be the friend you deserve.This time my decision has to be irreversible because I really have to take care of myself, like you have told me so many times.What I'm trying to say is that I'm not looking for a romantic relationship, I'm just looking for companionship and sex - to put it bluntly. If that aligns with what you want then great, if it doesn't then I'm sorry.Sorry Zoe just woke me up from a nap, I'll call you back in 15 minutes.

People think I am not normal 

I am abnormal 

Thanks, maybe 

I took it as a compliment 

Maybe I am crazy 

Conflict 

Too many conflicts 

Inside me 

That is the reason why 

I am always looking for a harmony 

A lot of time I just want to be alone A lot of time I just want someone to be with me  They are all me They are all real 

However

It is not just about me 

You are flying to Finland tonight 

I don’t know when will we see each other again 

I don’t mind if you are just gonna disappear in my life 

Anyways

You know I am a little bit of crazy 

I think that is the reason 

Why

You liked me